I've been following FDS for about 2 years now. Back in November 2020 - FDS, along with therapy, has helped me get out of a toxic, hot and cold 5 year old relationship turned situationship. I finally was able to block my ex for good, never to look back and never to respond to his bait and hook messages.
After that I was not really interested in dating and men at all. I did not look for a new relationship, was not interested in OLD and even thought of finding someone new seemed more like a bother than something that I wanted. Honestly, I loved this new feeling of "ew, scrotes" 😂. Having been lovesick for a big part of my life, suddenly not being into dating men felt like a breath of fresh air - I was able to focus on my education and career change - all of which was successful - I got a new good job at a great company while part time studying for a new degree.
Now, I work remotely and mostly from home but I do attend company events that are held every few months. I do not know most of my coworkers as most also work from home and also on different projects, and these company events are a way to get to know people in your company.
A month ago I attended one of these events and caught an inexplicable crush. It is on a coworker that I do not really "work with" (is on different projects), haven't talked to and hardly know anything about. I just looked him in the eyes and boom. It sounds cheesy and I was completely sure I am too old to crush on someone over literally nothing. I thought it's weird and that the feeling was gonna pass in few days, but it's been a month now.
Rational part of my brain and not-so-rational part of my brain are constantly fighting now. Rational part of brain is aware that crush does not mean much. Not-so-rational part of brain wants to fantasize and is bringing back those lovesick feelings I thought I finally got rid of. I, myself, just want to go back to the old me that didn't give fuck about men or dating and continue focusing on my career and education and being content with friends.
Has anyone experienced similar situation? A sudden idiotic crush after a long period of not giving a fuck? How did you deal with it?