I used to be really nice. I had long relationships and marriage, 10yrs 5yrs. The men were decent actually treated me well for the most part but it ended for compatibility reasons.
But in the last 3 years since learning about fds and reading a lot of feminist texts it's like this wall broke and I can't unsee the other side. The misogyny of the patriarchy, it's everywhere.
I used to always split bills etc. But now I don't want to. I actually don't want to do anything for men ever. 🙃
If a man asks me on a date, it seems they still think that I should pay my half or put out. It disgusts me. And I know I'm supposed to smile and say thank you but it doesn't seem to be working. I don't know if they are just trash men or they can somehow tell that I think they are below me.
I feel like I need to practice this skill or something. Also why men don't men want to pay for dinner? What is wrong with them? I want to say thanks. But they don't care for thanks. I'm lost