Hey, I'm not one for posting much but I am struggling quite a bit at the moment and just hoping for some words of encouragement, or tough love or something.
My ex and I broke up about 6 months ago. He told me he would be single for a long time, that he has too many issues etc. But he already is with someone new. I feel I am so naive to have believed any words that he said, especially as he lied our entire relationship. He was in my life for nearly a decade. He has hurt me so much I feel so broken and seeing him with somebody new has triggered so much. I'm struggling to understand what was truth and what was lies. Do you think it's best I assume everything was a lie? I think that is hard to stomach as I wasted so much time on him, and still now since seeing him my mind is fixating and my heart hurts so much.
When we were first together it felt like he was the first person to ever truly love me. But looking back, I can see all it was was flattery and charm. I am on the spectrum which might have contributed to my situation with him. I'm not sure how to move on once and for all? I have not so much as kissed another person since we ended things. When things ended I felt so betrayed due to all the lies. Now again I am feeling betrayed because I let myself believe his words from the past.
I feel like even though he is objectively a very nasty person for what he did to me, because he can be charming and funny, he will always attract people to him. I feel like I have 'lost' again, because I still am healing from his abuse, whilst he is out having a great time in life.