So I’ve slowly been cutting off friendships that haven’t been serving me for a while now. Life is less stressful it’s true. Yesterday I got lonely as I had a child free day and thought I’d reach out to an old friend. I last attended her birthday party in Feb. She seemed glad to hear from me and said she’d pop and see me later in the day as she had someone coming to fit her decking. I wasn’t waiting around as I had a lovely day in my garden getting jobs done. I don’t wait around for people anymore. But she never showed. Not even a message. I’m not that bothered by it but it stings a little. I’m more so annoyed with myself for chasing a friend that hasn’t made any effort with me (I mean my mum was in hospital when we last got together and i was pretty upset, she never once after then messaged to see how things were. Which I knew was a bad sign) As soon as it got later in the day I realised that this is how it always goes, I make the effort and it’s not reciprocated. She’s not shown any reciprocity since I last seen her and I should of known better. I thought I’d learned not to chase relationships that don’t serve me. And I won’t be contacting her again that’s for sure. But I’m confused as to why this always happens. How do you make sure you don’t fall into these pattern all the time?? Am I being a pickme?