I have no intention of going back to my ex, not even in the next lifetime. But in two weeks it’s going to be the one year anniversary of the worst day I’ve ever had in my life. Although I’ve learned *soo* much and finally feel like I’m finally developing a sense of self without a man, I keep feeling this dread about the upcoming date. It’s like it’s just bringing back a wave of really heavy feelings that go beyond my rationale. Not “I want him back” feelings but like “holy FUCK that shit really hurted” feelings. It almost feels like I’m grieving for the loss of the old me. If you have any books, resources, or advice, I’d really appreciate it! It’s a hard time for me and I legit just want the date to pass so bad. Thanks.