I can sum my attitude towards men up as essentially the same attitude they have towards women, I see them primarily as objects. (To get what I want by using them and to have fun with) This whole view of men started around when I was eighteen but really began earlier when I was trained by my dad's abusive behavior to understand that if you act sweet, etc you can get what you want but still hate the person inside.
Nowadays, I'm just really crass towards men and honestly, a bit inappropriate too. I've had some unguarded moments that I've lived to regret so much... I'm not sure what to do. It's hard not to laugh at men and hate them and say things I shouldn't. (I'm 22) I just really want to start building the woman that I want to be, but my actions and words get in the way of that.
Help?