On my last post I posted a part of my struggles that I have to deal with on a daily basis. It's a possibility that I might have ADHD and if so, after years of begging and telling my mother that I have felt that something was off with me and her denying that I'm perfectly fine, that psychiatrist will only send me a bunch of pills that will leave me emotionless and I will become addicted to them....I'm deciding to be put myself first and getting the help that I have needed for so long. I have my first appointment with a psychiatrist coming up and let me tell you...I'M TERRIFIED but happy. After reflecting for a while, I actually made a list of the things that I have noticed about myself but ignored. Hopefully this list can also help those who can also relate to me.
I tend to space out when I'm having a conversation with someone, even when I don't mean too.
I always want to rush everything
I'm never consistent with anything
I get bored constantly of things
I get distracted way too easily
When I'm studying, I will focus for a bit & then my mind goes somewhere else and when that happens, I force myself to focus again but then I end up doing the same thing all over again
When I was younger, my mom got told by teachers that I was too quiet and barely participated in class
Constantly overthinking and have too many racing thoughts on a daily that sometimes I feel like I can't control
I tend to talk super fast at times and if I want to explain something to someone, I end up not making any sense.
I have been called out at work multiple times for making careless mistakes when I don't do this on purpose
I tend to be very forgetful at times. I've forgotten my shoes at nail salons a couple of times, left personal belongings at ex house a million times, have locked myself from my room, etc.
Sometimes I tend to hyper focus and forget about everything else
I'm impulsive and end up regretting my actions. Ex: Spending money without thinking it through
I end up procrastinating and always have to rush when a task is due
I've been told I can get pretty moody
I have had low self esteem pretty much my whole life (I'm 25)