It's honestly so rare for people to be nice to me in real life and take an interest in being my friend that it makes me scared when it does happen. I'm scared I'll get too attached, come off as too intense and scare them away. Or I'm scared they're going to change their mind about me and see me as boring and not worth talking to any more.
Anyway, this girl from school is being really nice to me. She responds to my texts really fast and actually continues the conversation by asking how I am doing or something like that. Also this morning she texted me asking if she could sit next to me in class (that's so nice wtf 😭 no one's ever said that to me before). So of course I saved her a spot in class and we sat next to each other.
I asked her to go to a concert with me and she said yes. But it's in December so there's a lot of time before that. She asked me to go to a museum with her before we go to the concert. I'm shook cause most people just ignore me, or at the most they ask for some kind of low-effort, boring hangout like a study session (and sometimes they'll even cancel that last minute).
I wish other classmates were also this nice to me, just cause it would prevent me from obsessing over one person. Right now it's kind of hard to avoid thinking about her and worrying that I'm going to mess up.
My heart breaks for you. You've obviously been through a lot, and I understand where your fears might come from. But sweetie, rest assured that you can't mess up friendships by yourself! Not unless you're intentionally trying to hurt someone, betray their trust or something like that, which you're obviously not going to do. :) All relationships are a two-way street.
I'm so glad you've found a friend who wants to spend time with you, she seems really nice. Despite all your fears and anxieties, try to just enjoy her company. You deserve only the best. ❤️
So far, so good. I found in the past when I worried I’d mess up, I had low self worth and thought the other person was better than me. I wanted to prove I was good enough, but then I found out that they were putting on their best self too, so I was comparing normal me to excellent them, when it’s not what’s going on in truth.