I'm 24 and still a kissless virgin. I don't really know where to meet new people (and bars, clubs, APPs are out of the question, since I'm quite unattractive and I don't like shallow people).
I'm thinking about getting a new hobby that'll force me to meet people. Something like, IDK, maybe music? I have a lot of issues making friends because I don't really know how to talk about things outside my interests (which are narrow, to begin with) and people've always bullied me for being ugly, so I dislike them, in general. When I talk to someone I don't know I always have the thought that they're thinking I'm stupid and ugly, that they're bored, etc.
People have also bullied me my entire life for being autistic and slow (mentally).
I also've had severe BDD for some years. BDD that was caused by people calling me ugly. I got obsessed over the blackpill and wanted surgery and would only think about surgery the whole day. I had to stop my studies for a whole year because my mental health was deteriorating a lot.
At the very least, I'm ok RN, in the sense that I don't know what's like being in a relationship, so I don't feel too lonely. But yeah, I also kinda cope by not thinking about these subjects. Subjects like attractiveness, solitude, pretty privilege, etc...
When I think about these things I feel miserable and start crying.
If I'm being honest, I don't really like neither men nor women. I only like the people I trust. I want better women rights because they'll help me, not because they'll help other people, which is a LV way of thinking, I guess. I just don't really feel empathy. I don't really care about anyone but my friends, family and myself. Most people would act as if they were your friends, and then call you ugly behind your back (or at the front, because they know you know you're ugly), so they aren't worthy.
Sorry of this came off as ranty.
I'm just a bit angry RN.
At least, I'm not reading blackpill shit anymore. I know how ugly people get treated, that's my life. I don't need the internet telling me what I've experienced so far.
Maybe it's my fault for cutting off a lot of friends from my life, since I didn't like the comments they'd make about ugly people and people with mental issues, autism, etc.
I don't want friends that are like that, because they don't really like me. They're pieces of shit. Same for the people who think that ugly people are evil, basing that on personal experiences and biases. The same people who mock, with good reason, racist persons for the same logical fallacy (painting a collective as evil because of their personal experiences).
I also do the same, though, so that makes me stupid, too (thinking that most people are evil because of the way they treat me).
I can't help but feel like a failure because I have 0 romantic opportunities and my parents are quite annoying with the topic. They make me quite anxious.
One of my fear is dating someone not because I'm attracted to them, but because there's no other option, and entering a shitty marriage. IDK how ugly people don't find their partners ugly, honestly. I think they kinda do, but realize there's no point in crying about it.
PD: I guess this is kinda discriminatory, but if you're conventionally attractive, I don't want to read your opinion. The born-rich don't give advice to the poor, even when they mean well. Mainly because they're pretending to be in a situation they've never been before, and think life's fair, for some reason. I don't really like attractive people, as in they believe they're superior to the rest of the world because of their genetics. Ugly people, especially men, are also bad, in the sense that they're entitled and resentful (we, ugly women, are the same, too, but we don't kill people because our looks).
PD²: I must say that people don't call me ugly that much nowadays. Now they just ignore me. It's better than bullying me, but still kinda sucks
90% of men ae undatable anyway (felons, Porn brainrot, crazy kinksters, narcs, religious fundies, hobosexuals, manchildren and fuckboys)