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I've been recently hired to partake in paid job practices. I think the reason I was hired is because I'm disabled. Take this with a grain of salt, though, because I wasn't especifically told this.
I was hired in a printshop, as a clerk/management staff, to be more especific, though my tutors (bosses) make me do menial labor, like opening up packages, arranging stock, arranging commercial invoices, etc., you name it. According to them, I'm not doing customer service because "I'm not ready for that yet". Thing is, I've been working here for almost three months, and the practices end in two weeks.
I think they're just using me because my salary doesn't come out from their pockets, but from Goverment's aids, so I'm just a disabled—despite the fact that none of my tutors have made any effort in helping me out; or perphaps they don't even know I'm disabled, or were expecting my disability to be solely physical. I don't know—free-cost slave. Or so I think.
What enrages me is how I'm treated. I don't really care about doing manual labor that much, to be honest; it's the attitude of my superiors. Their "since you're so ******** you can't do the work you were hired for, do these braindead tasks even people like you can manage", or how no one understands that I'm not lazy or not paying attention to them; I just have actual develomental and learning disabilites (autism, ADHD and, probably, lower than average IQ, for those who are wondering).
I've been always treated that way by everyone, even by my parents, who didn't allow me to do anything on my own since I was 17-18, because I'd fuck up and was hard to teach; same could be say for my teachers, who insulted me in class for not understanding the subjects and always lagging behind. Obviously, my classmates were no different.
I just don't understand why companies are like that. I'm sorry if this comes up as rambly; English isn't my first language.
An anecdotal story I have about what I've mentioned earlier: I went to a job interview, because they were hiring disabled people to work at a taxi station, as an intermediator. Well, as soon as I showed symptoms of my disability, the interviewers complained. So why the fuck were they hiring disabled workers, if they couldn't even understand why I was having issues with understanding how to do the job?
Honestly, I'm just very tired of neurotypical people, to the point of thinking about stopping being a people pleaser (by being actually rude and inconsiderate with them). It isn't the best of ideas, I know, but maybe it could work?
I'm sorry you're experiencing this. It's hard enough to navigate having a disability of some kind, and then actually going for it with getting a job etc, and then to face this kind of negativity makes it all the more hard.
Especially when they seemingly hired you knowing full well you had a disability.
On the up side, this is temporary, and hopefully helps you be clearer on what YOU want to look for and find (ie your standards) in an employer in the future.
I would say noticing your people pleaser getting fed up is a good thing. It's what you do with this that matters. That anger/frustration is a good indicator for you about your boundaries.
I believe It's all about finding the right fit for you, job and capability wise, and then making sure you're working with/for people who are truly willing and able to accommodate you, whilst they are getting the benefit of your capabilities as an employee.
If it doesn't feel like a genuine win win for everyone then it's gonna suck.
Also keep in mind that business/companies have their own agendas, targets, budgets, etc that they have to meet. If they feel like you're/a person is a liability they're not gonna be happy.
I would suggest, if you haven't already, getting super clear on what your capabilities and value is that you offer, and your limitations/needs/accomodations etc, and that way you can have more discernment and understanindg of what may unfold in the future. You may not find the 'perfect' employer for you right away, but at least you will be able to maintain some sanity along the journey on your way to that opportunity, even if you feel you must take up some employment along the way.
If you have lower IQ then for sure you are not going to be seen as much of an asset. If you can raise it, and/or other metrics, you can provide value that way.
Is it a uni placement or something? If its an early job then its common to do menial work. But if you were hired for customer service and you're not doing that that's something else...
In the long run, Finding the right employer is SO key. And while they suck, bad experiences can help us see what we don't want, and also how we can better ourselves.
good luck
I had a narc boss. Sabotaged things, broke the law. Found something new. It's them, not you.
Sorry - I have no advice re your employment situation. Just wanted to pop in and say, as a former lecturer, that if you can write to this standard in your second language, I highly doubt that you have a "lower than average IQ"! Wishing you all the best.