Hi everyone . I apologise if the topic is repetitive but I really need your help. I am 28 (f) and have fallen for my doctor (55) . I have been an FDS member and have even read the handbook multiple times but I had not been mentally prepared for this . When I went to him for the first time I was in a really low place personally and professionally. He was really charming and treated me like a special person and even asked about my life wellbeing and even flirted with me . I was flattered and felt a new will to live and got out of my depression temporarily. I could not even process the exact reason why this happened . It was after a month that I realised I liked his company but still I didn’t think I would fall for him . I went to see him again and we met outside at a cafe and I fell for him even more , inspite of knowing that he was married and my fathers friend. I took 2 days to process my feelings and felt a range of nervous emotions . I just couldn’t focus on my work and wasted time just sitting in my room thinking about him . Later on I told him that I couldn’t meet him again as I was attracted to him and that it was inappropriate given his age and that he was my fathers friend . I told him that I liked him but I couldn’t meet again. He just replied that he liked me a lot too and that we can be in a relationship outside of marriage. ladies , i Have decided to not meet him again for any reason but My mind and body seem out of control. I keep thinking of him in a way which I cannot stop and i haven’t felt that in a while . I don’t want to upset my father and make a mess of this . Please just be a bit kind and help me. Much appreciated .