I've been working in my first job for quite long time and there's no sign of career advancement here. I keep seeking other opportunities in other offices, but I haven't found one, so I just stay here.
But lately I can't "just stay" because my stupid male manager. He joined this company later than me and have been trying to seek popularity, but everything fell flat because he's so annoying and unprofessional. He bluffed around, never did actual work and only just hop from meeting to meeting, show no respect to our service workers, also just not a nice guy to be around. Nobody likes him, except for his superior, which is unfortunately, our Director.
I can't respect this guy, and as a very expressive person, anyone can look with their bare eyes that I hate him. He neither have charisma nor actual leadership skills. You know what he did to gain my respect? He gave me a Warning Letter which was made of stupid points like "Rejected a given task". I was actually giving him a consideration that this task is more suited to be worked by a manager, and he didn't say anything after that. Turns out he just served me that letter. He also punished me for "not using his document template", but it's not even our company's official template.
After the letter he gave me mountains of work with short deadlines as if he's trying to get me another letter for not finishing my work.
Now I can't control my hatred and days in office feels like hell now. I cant report him anywhere because he is the HR and the upper management seem to be in his side. I really want to quit but I'm still trying to find a new job.
The problem is I spiral down and sabotaged myself by lowering my performance because I can't handle this situation. I know I should've at least keep my good performance until I got a new job but I can't handle it. I feel humiliated as I finished my task, it's like I let him have upper hand of me. It's so hard to have a manager that I don't respect. Any advice on how I should face this situation?
Leave.
I've been in your position and you can't win. Your performance and sanity will suffer and you'll end leaving anyways, but on way shittier terms.
Sharpen your resume, reach out to your network, line up references and pound the pavement.
Don‘t beat yourself up. You received lots of work and got it done, that‘s when mistakes inevitably happen. Don‘t let them diminish your accomplishments but leave for your own sake. A healthy surrounding will invigorate you again.
Did you try to greyrock him?
In a very similar situation. Rooting for you!