I don't spend hardly any time around, or with, men these days.
My life has become infinitely more peaceful.
I understand why I made the efforts and compromises I did when I was younger (and far more of a pick me). But I am infintely happier these days.
(I would like to have HVM in my life, but I am rather content w/o, and VERY content w/o the nonsense of LVM and pick mes in my orbit ha..)
Well, recently, I started attending some online conferences. They were relating to some history and politics topics.
I attended quite a number of sessions. There was a very wide range of people present, from many countries, perspectives and opinions. Well, woah, ladies. It was the first time I was in proximity with so many random people, men, women in a very long time (I try to curate my experience these days to as high value and quality people as possible).
I'm sorry to report that I was exposed to some of the most depraved qualities and expressions of many of these 'men', and their deluded pick me allies, who would support and defend their depravity until the end.
I don't know why, or how I even did this, but for some reason I stupidly entered the conversations with my old (thought I had retired-) 'I'm entering into this in good faith, and they are too' mentality. 🤦♀️
I'm also sorry to report, that there were a few select cultures of men, that were particularly horrendously depraved, and felt completely vindicated in their positions, words and behaviour. In line with previous conversations we've had on here and different cultures enabling (even) more depravity than others.
I feel dirty after having put myself in those environments. I forgot how down right toxic, and frankly, insane, some people - and men!- can be.
It's SO FAR AWAY from my nature, I can't even.
Wasn't quite sure where to post this, but it's really affecting my mental health and I need to recover, so I've put it in Mental Health section.
Honestly some of the ways they spoke ot me, over me, down to me, addressed each other, the hostility, the aggression. I mean it felt like a men's war den or something. 🤮
My life became so peaceful when I effectively went WGTOW that I now only focus on problems that men give me on a spiritual level from across the country. But those are also big problems, so it seems like I'm unhappy, when I'm actually way better off. Don't get me wrong, I've dated a few times in the past year. But those dates were mostly just reminders that men will not appreciate you giving them ANYTHING, even if they're paying for your food and clothes. ANY time you give them something, they're just like "what's wrong with you."