I have been lurking and occasionally commenting on reddit for a bit over a year now. Slowly I have been learning to love myself, respect myself, not make my whole existence on a boy.
In my personal life, my career has been going better and I am slowly taking steps to be better.
One of my new standards is a potential partner must seem to know what he wants (without me telling them what I want).
There was a guy I met online who seemed like a great conversationalist at first but over time I started to think, “What if my best girl friends could see these messages?” His immaturity and really started showing through not mention aggression and bad communication patterns. Finally, I did show my best girl friends.
In a previous relationship, I have been “discarded” before so it made me not want to do it to others. However, for the first time in a while I finally had the confidence to block and delete. Based on what I told him like how I want someone who knows what they want or the way he reacted to me being honest about boundaries… I knew he would just try to change to what I wanted until I felt stuck. He seemed to want me for how I could benefit his career and entertainment than who I am as a person.
I am off to bigger and better things and I’m glad for it.